Go for your goals.

Salam and Hi everybody!

I hope you are doing well because I am.
If you are not, yeah it is okay to not be okay - hope you'll get better soon.

I still remember.

There was a point in my life when I was about to graduate from matriculation and I did not know what I want to study. What is my passion? The things that I know at that moment is I love singing and music. I started joining music and band just for fun.

People say passions can become careers - nahhhh my parents don't allow me to go into music for a career. Then they stay as hobbies and that is okay. I'd never want that to be my job either.

Yeah people also say that we have to follow our dreams (no matter how much it may hurt). So that when you grow up your passion is your job. Well I'd heard that advice a lot when I was a kid.

A lot of people feel teenagers should have their lives planned out at the age 18 or even 16. But I just wondered how people at 19 know what they want the rest of their lives to look like. All I know is I want to make amount of money. That's it.

My goal at that time is I want to go to university and get a degree. I've wanted to do things that I am good at, and it's gonna be my job - I must study things that I am good at. Then people said, end up you'll be in a completely unrelated job - it will not be relevant with your degree. You might be enjoyed with your job but it is not your passion. Yeah I heard it a lot!

But I don't care. I am not built for that kinda thinking. I must pursue in things that I am gonna be fabulous at. Yeas I was struggling with what career path I want to take. It's not that I lack ambition. I just don't know, I haven't figure out exactly what I want.

I once told my friend, to be honest I don't know what I want to study. I kept dua and I put trust in Allah, to put me in a place and be in a programme that I will be good at them, no matter if I don't like them at that moment, I promise I will fall for it and I am not afraid to take the risks.

And here I am, end up studying thing I love. I'll start my third year in September. I've never thought that I am going to love what I am doing. Alhamdulillah.

People, remind yourself that nothing can stop you from achieving your goals and also influence others to continue doing things they love about for the rest of their lives.

Go for your goals, achieve your personal success!

Till then, keep well.

21 Things I've learnt in the last 1 year

Salam and Hello everybody!

I hope you are doing well.

And here is 21 things I learned and realised in the last 1 year.

1. Be brave enough to walk away from situations that don't benefit you.

2. Give yourself the space and time to grow.

3. Don't care of what others think of you.

4. Don't stop being a good people because of bad people.

5. Also, don't always be too good for everyone. You don't need to be a bad person either.

6. Be careful with who are you choosing to work with (in a work group)

7. Don't be afraid of the real world. (don't be scared for life)

8. You can't please everyone.

9. I realised I still don't know how to say 'NO'

10. It's okay to not be okay and it's okay to cry sometimes.

11. Heartbreaks can happen and that's okay. You'll be okay.

12. Always be thankful then you'll learn to appreciate little things.

13. Don't set your expectations too high. Keep it low to save yourself from disapointments.

14. Not everyone has good intentions as you do.

15. Evaluate your relationship before you get in too deep.

16. I realised that everyone makes mistakes. (not just me)

17. Not everyone would treat you as how you treat them.

18. Don't be in a hurry to make a permanent decisions.

19. Don't let your past experiences stop you from living your life.

20. You are the key to changing your life.

21. Don't try to fit in, you'll only end up hurt.

Till then, keep well!

Was on semi hiatus.

Salam and Hi everyone!

Maybe most of you probably never noticed I was inactive. I hope everyone was doing fine.

Yes I was going on hiatus and it is over. I really really want to post inspirational things but I don't know something took away my joy of blogging. So that is the main and first thing why I chose to take a semi break from blogging.

I don't really know why I felt that way. Just haven't had really much motivation to blog. Basically I wasn't in the mood to blog for a while - so I had to take a little break. To step back for a bit plus motivation was not there.

But from now on, I will try to be more active, try to update this blog consistently. I love being back again and I hope it is going great.

Good news: I finally cleared my skin from acne. I had a really bad breakout for your info. Alhamdulillah, after few months. Now its getting better, its cleared. I just have scars here and there, and still in the process to fade them away.

In advance, thank you for still sticking with me. Thank you for reading and following. All your support and feedback means a lot to me.

Stay awesome people!

Forgiveness is beautiful.

Salam all and Hi lovelies.

Maybe some of you say that forgiving is not necessary and we don't actually have to forgive everyone but on a personal level, I gotta say that forgiving people is actually a huge part in moving on. I forgave people to keep the peace or whatever.

I used to hate people who lied to me, cheated and betrayed me. But then they teach me to expect less from human and rely on Allah.

I admit that some times I feel victimised by apologizing for things that aren't even my fault and whenever I need to forgive them even they aren't sorry. I end up simply don't even give a crap (even I say that I don't do hate but actually I just started to hate them).
But that hate, bitterness and anger did nothing to them and its not good to me either. Then I started forgiving them and leave everything to Allah.

I chose to forgive them even they haven't apologised. I wanted to free myself from bitterness and anger. I give it to Him because He is our justice and peace, then I always chose to move forward.

Thanks to my parents - no matter how many mistakes I make, they still love and forgive me. They knew that I'm growing up. Thank you for being patient and love me as much as they can. There is no love without forgiveness right?

Yes I once read that "kalau maaf tu mudah, semua orang akan sentiasa buat silap" well yes! but forgiveness is actually good for us.
You must have heard of forgive but not forget. We forgive those who have wronged us but we never forget. No doubt.
To give them a second chance is your choice, but what could help you to fully recover from what they have done to you is forgiveness.

Maybe you'll forgive them but kinda hope karma gets them. Whatever suit yourself!

What I want to say is,

If only we remember how short this life is and how soon we will be a memory for all, we had be more forgiving and less likely to hold grudges.
Forgiving someone who didn't know they messed up because I chose to let it go without telling them they wronged you, I forgive them and it feels good.

I just realised, forgiving those who hurt me literally allowed me to be free. Now I breathe a little easier.

Anyways, what does forgiveness look like to you?

Till then, keep well.

Become a tutor.

Salam all and Hi.

It is sem break and I usually stay at home but this time I want to try something new so I have been working as a tutor for math and additional math.
Personally, I am not a professional tutor but I used to tutor a lot in high school back then.

Shout out to my add-math teacher (when I was in secondary school back then) for giving me this opportunity and trust me to become a tutor for his students.

I had few sessions with them.
I have four students, an Indian girl and three boys. They are okay, friendly and I like them because they are so hardworking. That's enough, I couldn't ask for more than that.

They are terrible at math. I have to admit that, but that's okay to me. I will help them as much as I can. - I also help them with their homework. Peace.

Our first session went well.
They came over to my house and the tutoring session was starting at 8 in the morning. (Yes I need to wake up earlier than normal).
I sat down at the table with them and tutoring them. For three hours!
I don't know how much they've learned at school so far. but they ware like

"Please guide us from the very beginning because we are lost. We failed in this subject"
"We just got like 4/100 on test"

I told them that it will all be alright. Inshallah.
I genuinely want them to feel positive. I want to make them feel awesome when they getting stuff done. I want to help them turn that failing grade into a passing grade.

I told them that math fades if they don't practice it.

For the fee, RM20 per month (4-5 classes).
At first my mom was like "That's insane, no one would ask for just RM20 for addmath tuition" which means my mom asked me to ask for more than RM20, at least RM30, she said that its hard to teach math, especially to someone who terrible at it.
My answer is still no, I will stick with RM20. I don't really know how to ask for money tbh.
And it has been a month, none of them pay me yet lol. But its legit okay to me.
I don't really do this because of money, yeah I am bored. So why not?

Wish me all the best btw.

Till then, keep well.

Self vector portrait.

Salam all and Hi.

How you guys doing?
I hope everything is okay with you.

Someone sent me a vector portrait of myself, and it is free of charge. yay! So here I want to do kinda review of it.
Maybe you're interested to get one, because his work is so stunning!

Yes, everyone has their own style of creating vector portraits. To be honest, vector art is not my forte. To me in creating a vector, we really really need to have an eye for details and spend some time on it and patience.

I tried to make a vector portrait (turning a photo into vector illustration), I was using GIMP. The software is quite niece and easy to use, especially for beginner but I don't really want to spend that much time on making that so I decided to just leave it. haha don't judge me.

but hey look at his work!

I don't know but I am so impressed! and I genuinely really like it. Thank you so much. It's amazing.

If you want him create a vector portrait for you, you can reach him on:

Facebook: Fitri Hamid

Whatsapp: 0135078346

What do you think of his work? Don't forget to leave a comment.

Till then. Ciao!

How weird is my name?

Salam all and Hi.

I hope you're doing great.

How is me? I am fine, thanks.

For those who doesn't know what is my full name, lemme tell you - my full name is Nurul Farozze. Maybe this is the first time you have ever known someone with this name, and that's me. Well it is kinda weird name I guess because there are lots of people ask me,

"what is your full name actually? is that for real?"
"oh that's weird!"
"what is the meaning of your name?"
"I don't know how to pronounce your name?"
"Is that the real spelling?"

So yes, that's my name and I am proud of it. Shout out to my dad, thank you so much for this name <3

I've never hate my name nor the spelling, but I admit that I was curious to know what is the meaning of my name. I did google, asked people - but I didn't found it. So I simply say that my name doesn't mean anything.

Before further ado, if you are wondering why am I suddenly talking about my name? This is because recently, someone that I just know and he asked my full name (as always) and I told him, that's my name. Then he asked me what's the meaning of my name? and I just answered him that I don't know but I think there's no meaning, and he was like "kalau takda makna panggil nama lain je lah."

Auch, that's hurt!

But hey I'm not sad or anything, I get used to it. I have been using this name all my life and I am actually don't give a crap on people who saying bad about my name and stuff.

I am too busy being me, yknowwww.

To be honest, I am so thankful for this name because it helps me a lot, in everything. Yes, people easily remember me - the lecturers especially. (but it makes me hard to skip any classes/ponteng because the lecturer knows me)

Oh ya if you're wondering how to pronounce it, it is like 'Fa-ro-zi' - the spelling doesn't matter.

I still remember when I was taking a test for IPG, one of the lecturers there asked me - what country is your dad comes from? and I was like, hey my dad is a Malaysian, and then he said sorry because he just wondered why my name is spelled like that. I wasn't mad or anything - it's okay!

I want to be real with y'all - frankly, I always getting nervous whenever I am being in a ceremony or event and whatnot, where is my name need to be announced or to be called in a public, in front of tons of people. I am scared if they mispronounce my name, I don't know why I've got that feeling and yes it is annoying, but I get used to it. No problemo. I know most of people genuinely cannot say my name.

One of the beautiful things that I like with this name, is whenever I am waiting for my name to be called, and at that moment - the person who are calling the names is like 'nurul fa......ro......' and they look of confusion on the face and I just like "yahhh that's me" and I have never ever mistaken! Well people usually stuck on my name and I swear, I know that's me. Haha.

And I know some of people they are laughing of it, yknoww I can hear that, but I couldn't anything - whatever people do is not my business and I just care about me, about how I feel. That's that.

For those who likes to make fun of other's name, can you just stop it. You don't really know how they feel and why not just being nice with people?

I am so sorry because I don't have any special ways of explaining my name but I am proud of it.
Nurul Farozze, that's me. Call me 'Ee' for short (E-e) maybe that's the weirdest nickname I dunno.

and yes I have never been able to find any key chain with my name on it. Lol.

Till then, keep well.

Book Review: Gantung

Salam all. Hi.
I hope you're doing well.

So today's post I wanna do a review of Gantung by Nadia Khan.

This novel is published in December 2013 and this is my second time reading it. Yes, I can re-read this book even 10 times. lol.

I feel like reading the past and present at the same time, it was a lil bit confusing at first - so when you read this book you really need to catch the whole thing from the first or you will re-read it again to capture the whole thing when you just know what is actually happened.

The superb plot twists are so mind blowing! I don't know but I just like it.

Basically the story is about friendship and this is not a love story. They are four of them, Gibbs, Ray, Kj and Troll who are best friends. They have a promise/code: no one for all, just all for one. and yes they treat girls like object. They can't have an exclusive relationship with a girl, they must share the girl till one of them breaks the code then strange things start to take place.

This book is for matured audience I guess because it is a lil bit adult-y, I'm not saying your brain will turns to blue or green or any colours - it is not that extreme tho, but just parents, be careful on what your kids should read.

It is absolutely satisfying but you know I'm kinda frustrated by the ending, because of this one character - it almost made me cry cause I like Gibbs to be real somehow, and Kj, he is a cool guy. So I would like to give 4.5 out of 5.

I really really like this book a lot, and it is one of my favourite malay books - I just read fixi books. hehe.

Well I don't want to spoil but just trust me it is a worth reading if you're looking for something different.

Leave me a comment what do you think about this book if you have read and maybe some suggestions of fixi books?

Till then, keep well.
Ciao.
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Read the first two chapters: HERE

Exam Anxiety?!

Salam all, hi!

I hope you are doing well.

And yes, it is exam season. To anyone who has to do exam right now, I wish you all the best.

I don’t know about you all, but maybe you can’t help but feel some anxiety, you would stress so much. You didn’t sleep, you stayed up all night and go to your exams looking like death. You didn’t eat properly. Basically, you are stressed and anxious.

I am not that kind of person, I am not a night owl. I sleep early, wake up early in the morning. But just a little bit nervous, like butterflies in my stomach. Basically I deal well with exams, but still I hate exams and I don’t know why. Even I passed with flying colours but just I hate it.

What I always did whenever I feel anxiety, nervous etc.

•           I listen to music.
•          Getting to bed.
•          Drink lots of water.

I heard that chewing gum, it would help you to increase your focus and concentrations and apparently it is a better study aid than coffee.

Well, I don’t feel that exams really show our intelligence. It is actually just make some people so anxious. But we still need to do the best, I don’t know why, but we have to.

What I hate the most is whenever I forgot something, I knew it but I just forgot then my mind goes blank and I will keep trying to remember it, but just I forgot it – and as soon as I leave the exam hall, nahhhh I remember it.

And the coursework, it’s like 60-70 % of the grade. And I usually don’t check my coursework marks before the finals. Either I did well or not, but just I don’t want anything to bring me down before I go for exams.

I would not recommend it. Because yes, it is not the best way to go about it. And for some people, by checking the coursework would bring them some confidence and spirit.

Some people say, all exams do is test our memory not our knowledge. But yah, feels free to disagree.

That’s basically my thoughts on examinations. And it all worked out great, literally nothing bad happened. I managed to be in the first class, so far. I’m in a second year and I have another 2 years to get a degree.

Wish me luck.

And to anyone who currently goes through exams, please don’t stress! It’s okay, you will find your path.

Why not leave a comment and tell me what you usually do to beat the exam anxiety, to handle the stress and nervousness. It might help others.

Till then, keep well!

Ciao.

After a long time.

Salam all. and Hi.

How you guys doing?

It has been a long time since my last update. Omg! I don't know how to express my feelings now. I feel excited to start blogging, well this is kinda my first time login to blogger after a really long time.

I really really miss to blog, to share my thoughts with you all. Maybe you care or maybe not, but um yah I am so excited, happy and at cloud 9. haha.

By the time I write this entry, I literally just got back from exam. I had a paper this morning, Operating System which is my second last paper. I have a gap about a week before my last paper, English. So here I am. Spend my time with blog!

For this first entry after a while, I don't really know how to start. I am so sorry not really have much content for you. No story to tell. I just want to do a lil comeback. Perhaps you still remember me. Next, Immana do a blog-walking. Lot of things to catch up with y'all.

And, I still don't have Instagram. LOL. Thank you so much for your invitations and to those who asked what is my Ig. I literally don't have one. Maybe in the future, Idk. But for now, I don't feel like I need to have one.

Well some people say it's to makcik makcik for just having Facebook. Haha. Whatever! And I actually just added a Sayat.me box onto the sidebar. So feels free to speak out your opinion, or you want to ask anything. I am okay, and maybe you want to follow or want me to follow you, Just tell me then.

Anyways, since we are in Ramadan. I genuinely hope you are doing well.

Hey that's me. Last time my family and I went to Cameron Highlands.

I really really have a ton of thoughts, memories, etc. to blog about. And maybe my trip to Cameron Highlands is going to be my next post. Idk.

I think that's all for now. Till then, keep well!

Ciao.